at times you felt that you are on top of the world.
at times you felt that your world is falling apart and there's nothing for you to hold on to.
at times you felt that there's a glimmer of hope, as though you are hanging on to a cliff and believe that you can save yourself. when that hope shatters, the darker the world it is to you.
at times you just feel like shutting yourself up to everything foreign.
at times you feel that you are just simply inferior to others.
at times you just want to give up and hack care.
at times you will think why the world is made in such a way that you really despise it.

people are always constantly seeking improvement in what they do. trying to improve themselves and be at the cutting edge of the population.
people do feel tired too. they even wonder sometimes, 'what's the point?'
i don't know why the pace is so fast now, making me feel breathless.